Letters from my heart ...

I know I said good-bye to this blog so that I can start a new one but things have not gone as planned. So for the time being, I will be blogging here. A lot has been going on. I opened up shop for my photography business. It has been much more work than I anticipated and it has also been more rewarding than I ever imagined. I have been so blessed to have met such beautiful souls along this path. Photographers have held my hand as if I were an old friend. My clients have been beyond awesome to work with. And I am finally nourishing the hunger for creativity that has been growling within me. I also went back to school to pursue my nursing degree. School has also been harder than I expected. I find myself staying up until the wee hours of the night doing homework. I am trying to find balance. I am trying to be a good / present mom and wife. I am truly on a mission.

Together is where we belong .... Wild and Free ....Here are a few pictures from our beach camping trip a couple months ago

Following the Bits & Pieces of my heart!

              

                Before my daughter came into our world, I thought I was well prepared with my point & shoot camera, Droid phone & little camcorder. Ohhhhh but when she got here, I was in aww, absolutly captivated beyond belief!!! Her sweet delicate beauty, the virtue of her innocence, and the representation of the miracle of life that her little yet large presence was ozzing! WOW!!! Oh man! I was tripping over all of it! I snapped thousands of photos of her; but I just couldnt capture the purity that was laying right in front of my eyes! She was only a week old but she was already growing, already changing. Time was slipping through my fingers. I knew I needed a professional. They came out and their pictures started to tell my Samantha Ryan's story. Her story was so simple, so pure, so SO beautiful and it had to be continued. I upgraded to a DSLR, took a beginners course, took my camera everywhere & captured as much as possible. Let me show you ....

This picture was right after her insane but magical birth....Such a special moment and I snapped many photos. I was frustrated that this was best I got. That wasn't the color of her skin! And the blur...Geez her details are all washed out.

I seen this sweet moment and this what I snapped.... hmmmm

                       This is a similar moment with my first DSLR camera and a  little bit of practice under my belt...........

I absolutely L O V E watching my babies sleep  ..... I remember taking TONS of snap shots in this moment. I tried every angle and this was the brightest and best I could do.

   Here she is moments away from awaking as a two year old. Again, this was taken with first DSLR.

A little trip down memory lane. These were all taken when I first started practicing with that first camera.

                          TIME....gosh these moments were all here & then they were just gone!!! My pictures were far from perfect but they started to capture a clearer image of her beauty. A closer & brighter view of her forever changing little details !!! Her personality was pouring into my lens, I started catching that sparkle in her eyes, her oh so contagious smile, her strong little legs, her chubby cheeks, her hair growing gentle locks, her exploration of the world, and her zest for life. Those things & more are the bits and pieces of my heart! The details I never want to forget! The little things that will ALWAYS bring me to nostalgia.
               I became more comfortable with my camera and settings. My pictures & exposure improved. I upgraded equipment again. I practiced more. I read books. I studied light. I invested in mentoring. And again I practiced more. Although my daughter will remain my muse, this has become a passion beyond her. I want to freeze time more & more & more. I want to follow my heart. The door is open and I need to just walk through it!!! Where ever this journey takes me, I am sure it will be lit beautifully!!! Don't let time get to far passed you, I am here if you want me to help you freeze little bits of your life.
                This will be my last post on this little homemade blog. I am purchasing a new site. It will be loaded with new adventures and INSPIRATION. It's going to be good! I am so excited!!!
                I leave you with some fresh favorites of that muse of mine .....

On to the next chapter..................................

BOY or GIRL?????

It has been forever since I blogged!!! It is time to start again because I really love it!!

We have had A LOT going on and it is not slowing down. It has been hard and scary at times but it has also been so exciting!!!

Well I wanted to spotlight on this pregnancy. I am due Feb 16th and we are beyond excited!!!
It is no secret that Silvio wants a boy BADDDDD!!!! Like it is part of his life purpose and he is incomplete without his boy. Don't get me wrong, he loves his girls but his heart wants what it wants. I definitely wanted it for him also. But healthy is really all I care about. And you cant go wrong with sister right!?

Silvio was so nervous that he didn't even come with us to the ultrasound. Well this gave me the opportunity to break it to him my way. I snapped a few pix...Nothing fancy....But definitely a moment capture! We took the girls to Lytle Creek and I asked him to play a treasure hunt with us. He didn't have to hunt very hard or far......

Yes IT'S A BOY!!!!! 

Sharing My Love

Oh my gosh! Me & Silvio!!! WHERE DO I START?!?!?!

I was just fourteen when this boy came along and STOLE MY HEART! We fell for each other fast and HARD! Here is a briefing :

I walked into the room…he was at the top of the stairs ….We were both literally FROZEN & the room became mute….we just STARED at each other for a very awkward amount of time….then he finally started to walk toward me….I could feel my flesh pulling me toward him… he said hello and gave me a hug….my whole body melted….I was so confused… what the heck is this feeling!!!???

It was so much that neither of us knew what to make of it. So of course we made it drama! But we couldn’t leave eachother alone. We were young but we already loved each other so much. And nothing could get in our way!

I have said it before, Silvio loves hard! He is so good to me. He gets me. He knows how to take care of me and he does it with purest of pure love. He does ALL those little things that mean the world to me! He always gets excited to see me (EVERY SINGLE DAY)…He always finds a reason to touch, kiss or hold me…He cooks for me…He rubs my feet…He always tells me he loves me…He when he gets romantic; he writes me the sweetest quotes…He makes me laugh; where my guts hurt…He is so protecting, I always feel safe…He STRIVES to make me happy....I could go on forever….He is truly wonderful. Now of course I get the normal wife stress from him but I can deal with it, in exchange for all the good he gives me.

 

This year, it has been HALF MY LIFE. WOW! We have been through a heck of a JOURNEY! I wanted to stamp this time of our life! I hated our wedding pictures :( So this was the perefect time for some new pictures. Thank You; Kamee! :)

 

                                                                I LOVE HOW HE LOVES ME!

I like how u can see my big ugly scar in this next one. Silvio took such good care of me when I couldn't take care of myself. He was so concerned and so so careful. I think that's how it's going to when we are old.....I LOVE THAT I GET TO GROW OLD WITH THE MAN OF MY DREAMS.

We have a LONG journey a head of us but I love where we are! We finally extended our family passed our pets. We have our baby girl Samantha Ryan! She is his twin! And she is BEAUTIFUL!

                                                                                      Our family <3

 

Trust me, I am very GRATEFUL! I wish everyone can have a piece of true love. My life would be so empty without it. I can’t & won't try to imagine a life without him. I am truly lucky! “We may not have it all together; but together we have it all!”